I had an epiphany of sorts a few weeks ago.
To become the person I want to be is less a matter of stepping up a level
as it is simply making lots of little good choices
every single day.
Choose to get up before Ellie so I can spend a few minutes one-on-one with Nicholas.
Choose to eat an orange instead of a cookie.
Choose to read my scriptures instead of that yahoo news article.
And so on. Little, tiny, everyday choices.
Simple, I know, but I guess it just hadn't clicked in my head until now.
I know what is right,
but because I am lazy or tired or overwhelmed,
I tend to make the choice that is easiest. Not always best.
And then I get discouraged because I feel like I'm so far off from the person I want to be.
So this year,
instead of telling myself that I am going to do something amazing or be someone amazing,
I am going to just make little good choices. and see where that gets me.
Each month I'm going to focus on one area I want to improve, and I'm going to make good choices each day in that area, maybe do a few extra activities that relate to that area, and hopefully some of the things I do will carry over each month and
maybe by the end of the year I'll be able to look back and see that I've become better,
just by making small choices.